My Journey Through Life

Seems like it has been a long week. I guess it is cause I spent three days working in restaurants with a new General Manager. Thursday I got up at 5am, drove 2 hours, spent 3 hours there, then drove back 2 hours and was on my feet till 6pm. I was beat. Today I slept later, but was on my feet from 8am till 4pm...tiring! Have the weekend off, so I can recover. I will have to work out longer tomorrow cause I skipped today, my legs were just too tired and overworked. Been doing well with my eating and exercise. I am proud of myself!

I am very frustrated! I ate less all week and worked out every day and there is no change in my weight! I am thinking it may be my sodium intake that is holding me back. I will work to cut that back, plus this is the week of portion control. I do weigh most of what I eat, but still snack on some 100 calorie packs that I don't need. Snacks this week are fruits and veggies, not salty and sweet.

Tomorrow is weigh-in day and I don't really know what to think. I know I have done well, exercised every day and cut back on eating. I still need to cut my sodium intake, but that is hard when eating fast food several days a week. Need to think of something delicious and nutritious to make for dinner tomorrow night. I will be working from home all day so I can make something while I am working. Just found a cookbook that I forgot that I had with healthy recipes, think I will take a look at that and try to get an idea. It is very cold here, it looks sunny but it is only in the 20's so I don't even want to go outside. I do have a few things to get from the store, maybe I better take a shower and get moving!!

I realized this morning that I am even sleeping better!!! For a long time, I was waking up several times through the night for no apparent reason. The last two nights, I have only awakened when I had to go to the bathroom and this morning, that was only 15 minutes before the alarm was going to go off! I guess the better diet and exercise has many benefits. I heard a commercial for some weight-loss product last night...they said the most obvious thing making it sound like it was some startling new revelation: "Excess body fat accumulates due to poor diet and lack of exercise" Wow, they must be rocket scientists!! Do they think we don't know that? I wonder how many people sat up and said "oh, wow, you mean if I get up off my butt and move and don't eat a dozen donuts every day I will lose weight?!" Oh well, I guess if it motivated one person it was good.

This is me (obviously in the blue dress) last summer...I gained a couple more pounds after this, can't believe I let myself gain all that weight back. I've been thinking a lot lately about my renewed desire to eat right and exercise. I tried so hard for so long to get back on track and just couldn't do it for more than a couple days. I made every excuse to eat more, and not workout. Suddenly, as if I awaking from a bad dream, I have the desire and determination to do this. I did it before, I will do it again. I keep reminding myself that I am going to take baby steps. I am not going to change my plan if someone else challenges me to do so. I am going to stick with my plan and my goals. It is for me and my health. I will continue to be happy with small wins, or, I should say, losses. My goal weight is based on past performance, not any weight chart. When I get to that weight, I will work to maintain it...if I lose more, great, if I don't, I will be happy with where I a...

I am working at home today, doing administrative work, so the challenge will be to not eat constantly. Pretty much think that my big loss last week will keep me motivated, so wish me luck. Walked with Leslie Sansone this morning...off to a good start. Time for breakfast, a shower and then time to work! I have an appointment today, but I am going to call and try to change it to tomorrow so I don't have to take the time away from work that I must get done. My dh is working outside today...poor thing, the high is only supposed to be 25! God Bless him and keep him safe and warm. Happy Tuesday!

I decided that I had to stop making excuses for getting up an exercising, so I set my rooster alarm clock for 6am. The warmth of my blankets held me back a little, but I decided I would get warm while I was exericsing. First thing first...jump on the scale, it is Monday morning, after all. I expected to see a loss of a half pound or so, I exercised a couple of days, but didn't eat as well as I should have. Imagine my surprise when the scale showed a 2.5 pound loss since last Monday!!!! Well, that was enough to get me going. I walked with Leslie Sansone for 30 minutes, then had a bowl of Honey Nut Cherrios and took a shower. Kept my calorie intake low all day, I feel good!!! I feel like I can do this...really, really do it!! I will lose this weight. Total pounds to lose as of January 1, 2009: 55.5 Pounds lost as of January 19: 3.5 Maybe when I have lost most of the weight I will divulge what my starting weight was! Stay tuned!