Sunday, April 29, 2018

Prayer Journaling and weekly update

Good Sunday morning!

This has been a good week.  I have been giving a lot of thought to me, my issues and how God is helping me overcome them.

Last fall, I started using a prayer journal to improve my communication with the Lord. It has worked wonderfully!  I take the time each morning to sit with my journal and a cup of coffee and talk to God.  I realized that my prayer life wasn't what it could, or should be since I wasn't really giving all my attention to God.  It was like sitting talking to a friend and trying to multi-task three other things.  You don't really connect with that person and they probably feel like you aren't paying attention.  God deserves more attention from me - and I deserve to take that time to connect with Him.

I started by reading a bunch of different suggestions on Pinterest - they were very helpful in getting me started.  I bought a spiral bound journal and started writing.  I spent lots of time sitting and thinking about what I wanted to do and how I wanted to arrange my journal. 

When I started doing this, I also started taking time to be quiet and listen.  Anyone who knows me, knows how difficult that is for me!  As I was thinking about/praying about the drug epidemic in our state and nation today, I felt a very strong call toward taking action to do so.

It was February 25th when I finally got my sign.  That day, I found out that the church was starting a restoration and recovery program.  The following day I called and left a message for the director of the program.  There is a lot more to be told about that story, but the point I want to make today is that I started out thinking this was just about me helping others and I now realize that my issues are real and I need help, too.  This is not only about helping others, but about allowing God to help me to overcome my compulsive behaviors.

I can't wait to see where God takes me on this journey.

Have a blessed day!

Saturday, April 21, 2018

Good Saturday evening! 

I think I finally figured out why people like to write Blogs...the reason I want to write now is that I have found there are things that I would like to talk about but I don't know other people who want to talk about the same thing.

Let me give you an example:

Over the course of the past 5 years, I have lost 73 pounds.  From January 2013 till about August, I lost around 60 pounds. I kept that off until early 2015.  I started working an office job, which I never did before, and I gained about 20 pounds back.  In the summer of 2017, I got partly back on track and lost 5 pounds, but just couldn't get the rest off. My goal weight at that time was 160...and I was hovering around 175 - 178.  Finally sometime late last Fall, with some encouragement from my DH, I started losing again and since then have reached my 160 pound goal...reset my goal to 155, reached that goal...reset my goal to 150...and I reached that goal last week!  Now my goal is what ultimate goal is.. 147 pounds!  I don't know if I will ever get there, but if I can stay at 150, I will be thrilled...I was thinking I wouldn't even make it to 160...and here I am...10 pounds less than that! 

This is the problem with talking about this.  The only people I know, with the exception of my DH, either don't have and never have had as serious a weight problem as I have, or they still have a weight problem and they really don't seem to like to hear about my success.  Perhaps it is the way that I approach it, but at least I finally remembered that I have a place to come and share my thoughts.

Have a blessed evening!
April 21, 2018

Today I was fortunate enough to attend a training event for Celebrate Recovery.  What a blessing this was. I have so much to be thankful for!  My journey through life has improved over the course of the past 10 months! 

I used to think that the only way I could have time to pray in the morning was to multi-task by praying while I was exercising or getting ready for work, or driving to work.  I now equate this to trying to talk to someone while doing something else that is taking your attention.  I wasn't giving God the attention that He deserved.  I started using a prayer journal and what a difference it has made in my prayer life!

I will go into more detail on this as I progress through the coming weeks, but for now, I just wanted to reintroduce myself to the blogger community.

Happy Spring...I think it may be here to stay at last!

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

Finding Strength in God

I have a family member who is in a dark place.  I have been praying for strength to reach out to this person and help to pull them out of the darkness.  I know that God will give me the words.  I find joy in the fact that when we have concerns and don't, in our human frailty, know how to deal with them, the Lord leads us in the right direction.  I was reading a book that mentioned "mind binding spirits".  I never heard this term before, in fact, I am finding that many terms that I am not familiar with are coming to my attention.  They all have great meaning for me.  I have been reading about strongholds that Satan builds in our minds.  The Mind Binding Spirits go right along with the strongholds to hurt us and hold us back from so many things.  I was drawn to research more about these spirits, or demons and I came across a prayer. As I read it, I realized that it could apply to my loved one. I took that prayer and adapted it to the situation that we are facing, the situation that my loved one faces on a daily basis.  

It was with some fear and trepidation that I turned in this direction.  Some of the information that came up in my searches sounded like witchcraft - so that scared me.  I got the feeling that I wasn't supposed to do this, that I wasn't prepared, that I wasn't...I don't know...Holy enough?  Then I found this verse: Mark 16:17 - "These miraculous signs will accompany those who believe: They will cast out demons in My name, and they will speak in new languages"

I realized what was happening. Satan was trying to get us to back off...he doesn't want us to reach out and help this person.  I know that I, that we do not have the power to cast out the demons of self-doubt and addiction, but that in Jesus' name it will be done.  God led me to read the book that brought me to this knowledge - He led me to read more - He would not have led me here if I wasn't supposed to know this, or pray this prayer.

So, as my spiritual life takes a very different turn, I will go forward with the Lord's blessing and stand up to the demons who surround my loved one!

God Bless you all!

Monday, August 26, 2013

Staying Productive

As I search the internet for jobs and try to decide what is next for me in the work world - I am trying to get some things done around the house.  I have been keeping up with dishes and have even cooked a few meals!  Lots of other things I need to get to.  A guy that my husband works with gave us a cabbage.  A huge cabbage!  Today I was adventurous and decided to make sauerkraut. I am not a big fan, but what the heck - you can only eat so much cabbage.  I found a recipe online - one that is done by canning the sauerkraut, not letting it sit in a crock for weeks.  I don't think I cut it thin enough. It didn't say to shred it...just to slice it very thin. You can see by my picture that I didn't do very well at that.  So 10 days from now, we are supposed to have sauerkraut.  It was really simple and if it turns out well, I will post the recipe and give credit to the person who supplied it. I don't want to give them a bad name if I just didn't do it right!

Sunday, August 18, 2013

Big Changes...

I think I am finally ready to 'talk' about what happened this past week.  I was invited to a meeting with my boss on Tuesday.  The meeting was actually a sit down to tell me that my position with the company had been eliminated.  It was upsetting and shocking to a small degree, but in some ways I was expecting it. A few things happened in the past few months that caused me to:

  • Not be as happy in my job as I once was
  • Feel that I wasn't living up to the expectations of the company
It was disappointing to the extent that I really did want to make a difference!  I really did want to be one of those people who got called up on the stage to be recognized at the end of the year meeting. This has caused me to take a look at myself, and the company that I worked for, to figure out why I didn't succeed.  

My conclusion is that there are two main reasons:
  1. I didn't push hard enough.  I should have stood up and said "Look, this is my responsibility and if you are going to hold me accountable for these results, then we are going to implement this plan that I have.  People are going to respect my decision and do what I ask of them in order to get the results".  I didn't do that.
  2. The people above me didn't have confidence in me, possibly because I didn't have confidence in me. They are a good company, with a lot of good people.  I believe that we just weren't the right match.  We had different ideas and they didn't jive.  
I know this is the best thing for me and for the company. Hopefully, they can find a person who is the right match and who can help them achieve their goals.  

I will find the right work match for myself.  I don't know what that is yet, but I will. By the Grace of God, I will. 

In the meantime, I need to keep taking care of myself physically and emotionally.  I must continue to exercise and eat right and lose the rest of my weight, then keep it off.  All while hunting a new job.

I will keep you posted...keep me in your prayers!

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Flower update

I have been so busy with work and planning the family reunion!  The reunion was a great success again!  Not as many people as I would like to see attending, but I understand - life, work and distance prevents many family members from getting there.

Our little corner flower garden has done so well!  It has really filled in and I think most of the plants are perennials so next year should bring beautiful color with little work!