- Not be as happy in my job as I once was
- Feel that I wasn't living up to the expectations of the company
It was disappointing to the extent that I really did want to make a difference! I really did want to be one of those people who got called up on the stage to be recognized at the end of the year meeting. This has caused me to take a look at myself, and the company that I worked for, to figure out why I didn't succeed.
My conclusion is that there are two main reasons:
- I didn't push hard enough. I should have stood up and said "Look, this is my responsibility and if you are going to hold me accountable for these results, then we are going to implement this plan that I have. People are going to respect my decision and do what I ask of them in order to get the results". I didn't do that.
- The people above me didn't have confidence in me, possibly because I didn't have confidence in me. They are a good company, with a lot of good people. I believe that we just weren't the right match. We had different ideas and they didn't jive.
I know this is the best thing for me and for the company. Hopefully, they can find a person who is the right match and who can help them achieve their goals.
I will find the right work match for myself. I don't know what that is yet, but I will. By the Grace of God, I will.
In the meantime, I need to keep taking care of myself physically and emotionally. I must continue to exercise and eat right and lose the rest of my weight, then keep it off. All while hunting a new job.
I will keep you posted...keep me in your prayers!